Paralyzing Fear of Sexuality

"You know what? I respect women! I love women! I respect them so much that I completely stay away from them!"

- Andy in The 40-Year-Old Virgin.

Alice is celibate and might even come across as if she was Asexual. However, her sexuality is actually really strong, it's just that she can't express it because she is too burdened by shame, fear and/or guilt. Thus, she might be unable to take initiative herself, or to consent to things she actually does want. And even if she does manage to take initiative or give consent, it might still backfire horribly as the shame etc reasserts itself.

This is a subtrope of Internalized Categorism: Alice really can't stand the thought of being one of those people - the "perverts", the "sinners", maybe even including anyone who actually likes sex instead of doing the proper thing. However, the character does not necessarily think that Sex Is Evil. Instead, she might simply doubt her own ability to handle it.

In Real Life, this condition is often believed to be far more common among women than among men. When a man suffers from it, it's often partially built on a fear of being abusive. In fiction, however, men who are scared of being slutty or "perverted" are sometimes considered funny.

When a character with this condition breaks free from the paralysis, the problem might be resolved by entering a simple stable relationship. However, this could turn sour if the character hasn't really dealt with the issues. Also, breaking free from the paralysis may also result in a counter-reaction, where the character turns overtly sexual. This can be a good thing or a bad thing depending on how the character handles it. In a balanced story, both paths are possible. And there might also be some zig-zagging as the character learns to cope with her sexuality. However, in an Anvilicious work, only one of the two paths are possible, since the author has already decided either that Sex Is Good or that Sex Is Evil.

Note that while this trope and Sex Is Evil and I Am Horny are sometimes caused by the same social and psychological mechanisms, they have two very different ways of handling it: Sex Is Evil and I Am Horny is about acting out in a way that is self-destructive and/or abusive, while Paralyzing Fear of Sexuality is about avoiding expressing one's sexuality at all. In either case, the condition may be caused by traumatic experiences, restrictive upbringings, or just extremely low sexual self-esteem (to the point where the person pre-emptively rejects themselves).

See also Celibate Hero and Windmill Political. Compare Heteronormative Crusader. Contrast Does Not Like Men and Does Not Like Women.

No individual Real Life examples please - structural examples are okay, however.

Anime and Manga

 * In Chobits, Hideki is tormented by his fear of being a pervert and living with an Innocent Fanservice Girl who will suffer a personality death if he actually were to act on any sort of desire towards her. This is probably the most justified example here.
 * In Fumi Yoshinaga's Gerard Et Jacques: Jacques is a virgin at heart, a wannabe Celibate Hero, and deeply believes sexuality is, oh dear, such a sin. Unfortunately the UST between him and his, ahem, experienced master, keeps piling until Jacques succumbs to a DIY solution, and gets a huge moral hangover for it. The whole issue is played for light drama and fun, but in a darker work it could have fueled worlds of angst.
 * This is one of the most likely explanations for Iron Klaus of From Eroica with Love.
 * This is one of the more common fanon explanations of Akane's behaviour in Ranma ½.
 * Before Ranma's arrival, Tatewaki Kunou had announced to the student body that any boy who wanted to date Akane first had to defeat her in combat (he didn't bother asking her if she wanted this), resulting in her having to fend off literal hordes of lovesick boys trying to beat her up while professing their love for her. You can hardly fault her for developing a whole bag of mental trauma from that, including directly associating love with abuse.

Comic Books

 * Bitchy Bitch has this kind of baggage in her back-story, and it keeps dragging her down.
 * In Watchmen, Rorschach has this as a part of his pathology.
 * If Johnny the Homicidal Maniac isn't explicitly asexual, he's this. His outright disgust with human sexuality and aversions to being touched implies that he may very well have a sexuality but deeply represses it.

Film

 * The teenage girl in Female Perversions, portrayed as a quite natural counter-reaction to her desperately oversexualized aunt's creepiness.
 * The premise of The 40-Year-Old Virgin. See page quote.
 * The title character in Marnie.
 * Sally in Intermission
 * Catherine Denevue's character in Roman Polanski's Repulsion takes this trope to frenzied extremes.

Literature

 * The female lead in Piers Anthony's Mode series was like this, due to past trauma. It took a Journey to the Center of the Mind to fix it.
 * Aliena in The Pillars of the Earth has rape flashbacks when she's with Jack, resulting in Kiss Kiss Slap and her running into the woods. Jack is understandably bewildered by all of this.
 * Jaenelle in the Black Jewels Trilogy has this problem after the absolutely horrific abuse she suffered as a child. Naturally she and her love interest manage to work through it eventually.
 * Callista in The Forbidden Tower has been so brainwashed into virginity that she freaks out if her husband so much as touches her. And when a Keeper freaks out, people get hurt.
 * Isaac Asimov's The Naked Sun features Solaria, a world where people practically never have physical proximity to another, and almost all of them are scared of sex as a result.
 * Carrie's mother Margaret White turns out to have a pathological fear of sex, coming from equal parts religious fanaticism and . This resulted in some seriously repressive parenting to Evil Matriarch levels, to the point where she didn't even tell Carrie about her body's natural processes as she got older, resulting in her first period in her senior year being traumatic in more ways than one.

Live Action TV

 * Laura Dickens from The Sandbaggers—according to the staff psychiatrist, it results from a combination of a prudish upbringing with a completely disastrous marriage that only lasted a week.
 * In Veronica Mars, Mac describes herself as "frozen from the waist down" since a traumatic episode. She and her boyfriend had planned a special night to lose their virginity together. Just before the event, she takes a shower while he waits in bed for her. When she comes out of the shower, he is gone. Come to think of it, her boyfriend  wouldn't do anything more than hold hands anyway, because of
 * Dexter deliberately dates a woman with this issue because it suits him down to the ground - he wants a relationship for passing as normal and grows to enjoy the emotional connection, but they are both effectively Asexual at first and that's just the way he likes it. While Dexter does have a sex drive, he's afraid of himself (he's a serial killer, and sometimes get aroused by thoughts of murder and such) and he's also afraid that his girlfriend will see through his facade if they get intimate. He's also faintly repulsed by intimacy (in the novel, deeply repulsed, and also pretty much despises Rita, but they made the TV character much more relatable), and every previous sexual encounter has resulted in his ability to fake normality being totally blown out of the water, since he's emotionally abnormal and spends most of his life going through the motions. This does not work very well for sex. She eventually starts to get over her trauma and get her sex drive back, and with some work they eventually manage to build a functioning sex life together because he does get inadvertently attached to her...and then his emotional life gets a shake-up courtesy of the Season One antagonist and his mind games. In the books it's implied the only reason he and Rita can have a sex life is because she's so damaged from her abusive ex-husband, she can't tell that he's not "doing it right".
 * Monk, due to his severe OCD.
 * Liz Lemon in the 30 Rock episode "Reaganing." Generally, Liz always had a disinterest in sex. After a few seasons, it was Flanderized into this trope.
 * Glee has Emma, who's afraid due to cleanliness Super OCD and Hates Being Touched.
 * A less extreme example wold be Kurt in the second season. As of Sexy, the thought of sex makes him incredibly uncomfortable, preferring to focus purely on romance. Played with in that he didn't appear to have much of a problem with it during season one—but then, after Never Been Kissed.... It is also important to note that at his age, it is perfectly normal not to feel like you are ready for sex. Everyone develops at a different pace. (As of "The First Time" he's gotten over it.)

Music

 * The Pet Shop Boys song "It's A Sin" is about the way a domineering Catholic upbringing will instil this in you.

Theatre
"Le Bret: Her heart, her fancy, are already caught! Put it to th' touch! Cyrano: That she may mock my face? That is the one thing on this earth I fear!"
 * Marsden in Strange Interlude.
 * Presumably Moritz in Spring Awakening.
 * Cyrano De Bergerac: At Act I Scene V, Cyrano confesses Le Bret that the only thing he fears in the world is that Roxane will laugh at him when he confesses his love for her. At Act V Scene VI, Cyrano confess that he feared to be mocked by women, implying that he is a Celibate Hero. This trope is justified because in his childhood, given his enormous nose, Cyrano felt that his mom did not love him. The whole idea of being capable of being loved is strange to him.


 * Anne in A Little Night Music, which is why she is still a virgin despite having been married 11 months.

Video Games

 * Psycho Mantis in Metal Gear Solid, who wears bondage gear and has a disgusted fascination with sexuality, but finds the thought of sex traumatic due to having mind-read the sexual fantasies of everyone he's come into contact with.

Web Comics

 * Hannelore in Questionable Content, due to severe OCD.
 * The entire premise of the Yaoi webcomic 14 Nights seems to be to cure one of its main characters of this. (So far, he behaves more like an Asexual, though, which has rather Unfortunate Implications.)
 * Joyce in It's Walky! started out like this. She eventually relaxes somewhat, and after getting engaged and losing her virginity, realizes how silly her fear was. She thereafter has an emotionally healthy and (very!) active sex life with her fiancée.

Real Life

 * This can be caused by disorders of varying severity, such as love shyness, Sexual Aversion Disorder and Schizoid Personality Disorder.
 * A letter to Dear Prudence was from a young woman who, despite being married for two years, had never had sex with her husband, due to her parents constantly browbeating her with the belief that sex is disgusting and evil. Oddly enough, they somehow managed to have six children despite their attitude.