Topic on User talk:DocColress

I actually do have a question, but man, do I feel embarrassed just wanting to ask it. Just... PLEASE don't view me as being a moron or anything for doing so, please?

I'm writing a fanfic. Yeah, a 21 year old writing a fan fic, how stupid is that, right? But anyway, it's for Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, and I was wanting to write one of its main villains with this trope in mind. Basically, I want him to be a Knight of Cerebus type character who commits horrifying acts that repulse even his own comrades... but at the same time, I'm genuinely trying to avoid making him come off as edgy or too "tryhardish" in his villainy, if you will. If you don't mind me going into detail for how I plan to write him, would you be willing to give me pointers at making him repulsive, yet not too out of place in his setting?

If you don't, I understand. Fanfiction is a cringeworthy thing to talk about in general.